Theres a lot of things going on in my head right now. Mostly its all anger I'm so angry and I don't even understand why, maybe its a mix of emotion. The thing thats driving me crazy about that is the fact that I don't understand why I'm feeling the way I am, I cant say oh I'm just frustrated because my cell phone broke. I wish it was that easy. This weekend I went out with friends and they tried to get me to drink and no matter how much they pressured me I sipped one of my friends martinis at a Ruby Tuesdays and sipped a corona lol I don't even know how to spell that shit because I don't care! I don't drink and what they don't understand is that well simply thats my edge over them. I don't have to drink I have no desire to drink and even though I'm completely surrounded by young even underage alcoholics I feel... like at least thats another way to hold on to who I am...or well who I used to be. I just need to vent but I got really tired all of a sudden gonna hit my rack. Kassie babe I miss you like crazy! Plan to be home at maybe the beginning of October. I''m getting a new cell phone soon. I'll try to post the phone number.